Revenant-san,
Why did I want a relationship with God/Jesus Christ? I confess that when I was given the opportunity to receive Christ, it was more of a drawing by the Holy Spirit than something I initiated myself. It?fs a great mystery how the Spirit draws someone to believe in Christ. Like the wind blowing through the trees, you can?ft see it but when it happens you have to acknowledge the effect.
But afterwards, as spiritual growth begins within, there is something?\Someone?\inside of you giving you appetites you?fve never had before?\spiritual appetites, drawing you closer and closer to the One Who has redeemed you.
And then there is the liberation from sin that begins to take place?cand keep in mind that I was ?gsaved?h when I was 14. I?fm now 51. This liberation is still taking place. See that means that I still screw up and that things in life still screw me up. But it means also that I have that Someone?\a heavenly FATHER I can go to?\for HELP. All human beings are very frail in our heart of hearts, in our core. Sin has done a number on us through the generations--whether in our genetics, our self-esteem, how other people treat us, how even FAMILY members treat us, it all goes back to the corrupting nature of sin coming into the world.
Knowing Christ gives me HOPE in this life and for the one to come (the one after death). In a world filled with so many awful things, so many ugly things, God's peace fills my heart, because I know Him and I know I can fully totally trust Him, because I can depend on His promises that He will make all things right again one day. And I find great joy in knowing that in the life to come every thing will be right and perfect and whole once more.
Read the entire first chapter of Ephesians if you have time:
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Ephesians 1 ;&version=49;
But this passage describes what I?fm trying to say: ?gwhile making mention of you in my prayers; 17 that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give to you a spirit of wisdom and of revelation in the knowledge of Him. 18 I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened, so that you will know what is the hope of His calling, what are the riches of the glory of His inheritance in the saints, 19 and what is the surpassing greatness of His power toward us who believe. These are in accordance with the working of the strength of His might 20 which He brought about in Christ, when He raised Him from the dead and seated Him at His right hand in the heavenly places, 21 far above all rule and authority and power and dominion, and every name that is named, not only in this age but also in the one to come.?g
Praise God--"There is therefore no condemnation for them who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death." (Romans 8:1)
Your last question: ?gSome things that I would like clarification on, is what do you mean by God is all-righteous? What does it mean to be all-righteous??h
God has several attributes which define His nature, both natural and moral. The natural attributes are omniscience, omnipotence, omnipresence, eternity; the moral attributes are holiness, righteousness, faithfulness, mercy and loving-kindness, and love.
God?fs holy character is manifested in dealing with mankind as righteousness and justice, sort of like legislative holiness (imposing of laws, demands) and judicial holiness (executing the penalies attached to those laws). So in the righteousness of God we have His love of holiness and in the justice of God, His hatred of sin. (paraphrased from Evans ?gGreat Doctrines of the Bible?h)
So simply put, "All-righteous" means basically absolutely just and completely pure in both motive and action, morally right, genuine, and true. Applied to God, it further means He is unable, by His very nature, to do anything false, unjust, or unfair. It has nothing to do with love, which is a separate attribute. God would have to be God in order to be able to balance and maintain these attributes with each other and not violate His own character.
Can you begin to see why Christ HAD to die on the cross? God Himself was the only sacrifice that would be perfect enough to be an eternal atonement. He loved us but had to make a way for us to be able to approach Him Who is without sin. The law makes no one perfect, but Jesus suffered once for all to do away with the reproach of sin for us who believe. This God-Man, Christ Jesus, offered Himself in our stead to receive God?fs wrath on sin, rose on the 3rd day, proving He was Who He said He was, and ascended back into heaven to the Father?fs right hand, where He ever lives to make intercession for us. This is why we believers can go BOLDLY to the throne of grace to find mercy and HELP in our time of need. (Hebrews 4:16)
And that?fs why I love Him. I had to do nothing to deserve this grace.
?gJust as I am, without one plea,
But that Thy blood was shed for me,
And that Thou bidst me come to Thee,
O Lamb of God, I come, I come.
Just as I am, and waiting not
To rid my soul of one dark blot,
To Thee whose blood can cleanse each spot,
O Lamb of God, I come, I come.
Just as I am, though tossed about
With many a conflict, many a doubt,
Fightings and fears within, without,
O Lamb of God, I come, I come.
Just as I am, poor, wretched, blind;
Sight, riches, healing of the mind,
Yea, all I need in Thee to find,
O Lamb of God, I come, I come.
Just as I am, Thou wilt receive,
Wilt welcome, pardon, cleanse, relieve;
Because Thy promise I believe,
O Lamb of God, I come, I come.
Just as I am, Thy love unknown
Hath broken every barrier down;
Now, to be Thine, yea, Thine alone,
O Lamb of God, I come, I come.
Just as I am, of that free love
The breadth, length, depth, and height to prove,
Here for a season, then above,
O Lamb of God, I come, I come!?h – Charlotte Elliott, 1835.